baby vomit

ok, Amber, seriously? You want me to blog about baby vomit?

...ok, what do you want to know? You want to know what color? (cream) The consistency? (chunky monkey) How about how it rips my heart out, everytime she looks up at me after puking, looking shocked and sad at how her dinner turned on her. Or about the depressed exhaustion after the fourth straight upchuck at 2:30 AM, wanting to make her better, knowing I can't, and through it all, just wishing I could go back to sleep. Or maybe having to go to work, while baby is feverish and I don't know what to do about it, other than giving her an inadequate-looking dropperful of tylenol?

Naw, you just want to hear if I got facialed, or not. Well, I DIDNT!!! :P

just for you, hambeast!

Sabrina Large
k i cant pretend no more i tried being nice and i tryed acepting you an adam being together but i cant. when i asked you about your age you said you were 20, you dont look like your more then maybe 16 years old an when i mentioned that to you, you d...idnt even deffend yourself nor did you say anything more about it. You look like a child raising a child, and that child doesnt look like adam. Adams like one of my best friends and i dont want to see him getting hurt, especially like that. if i am shown a dna test prooving that child is adams then fine otherwise no i just cant... i cant.... that child looks more like steve coul then anyone else..... so im blocking you i cant pretend anymore i just cant. i hope adam gets a dna test done and i hope your not lieing about your age i really do. Ive known people to use fake id to get into bars, t oget smokes and shit... i know on chick personally that did that an fucked my family over big time.Read More
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Sabrina Large
she was no where near the age of 18.. i cant do this no more i cant
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Alleah Marie Poirier
hmmm...I wonder if this was precipitated by the fact that I think she's a tool? also, I'm not going to block her, because I love the fact that she can see how unbelievably beautiful Adam's and my baby is. Is that a little harsh? whatever. life sucks, honey. put on your big girl panties and deal with it.
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Alleah Marie Poirier
What do you think, Adrianna fans? is this chick an idiot, or what?
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David Wolfe Carroll
You are absolutely insane and I have no idea what point you are trying to prove here. This is by far and large the most ridiculous, absurd comment I have ever seen. I actually do not know what else to respond to this. It is stupidity!
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Alex Veiszer
way to spell steves name, moron
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Nikita Towe
LMAO! Alleah, I can't pretend no more, I can't. You have the most unbelievably beautiful baby! And looking back at you from 16 to now, I can't believe how much you have grown and matured in 6 short years. I couldn't be more happy that you have found love, and am jealous of your beautiful family.Ps you can scrapbook like no one else!(I think that's what she's trying to say dear!)
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Alleah Marie Poirier
:D lol, well played Niki, well played!
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Nikita Towe
Meant every word of it ;)
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Alex Veiszer
So if she thinks shes so smart why is her grammar so crappy?
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Amber Card Ginther
girl,from the first time i set eyes on adrianna i saw adam all over her,u are the best mom ever,sabrina was and never will be good enough for adam,well lets face it a snake would not date sabrina,,,she crazy!!!!lol. and anyone who looks at anna can see adam in her if u cant then u come over and i will show u baby pic of adam at her age.not to ... Read Moremention my son, ur nephew drake looks alot like her when he was young.and girl if sabrina thinks u look 16 now,,my god u will look great when ur 40.as for sabrina grow up u twit!!!!
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Amanda Lynne Rossiter
hahaha! What an idiot!!
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Brianna Akins
wow, i think someone needs toget a life. This chick is a fucking space case. we all went to school together and are obviously the same age. Want me to beat her up? I totally good. I'll beat her up in the name of Adrianna :p
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Alleah Marie Poirier
no brianna, I shouldn't have to ask you to do thatkinda stuff...you should just do it. :D
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Alleah Marie Poirier
HAHAHAHAHA, I FORGOT ABOUT THAT! that is so true!!!
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Alleah Marie Poirier
although I think she'd have to race adam to the cyanide.
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Ucre Mattson
hmmm...looks like yet another example of why friends shouldn't let friends drink and get on facebook...ahhh well, lets hear it for yard sales and train wrecks!
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Steve Coull
fuck the cunt kick her ass get it over with ill pay good money for it and my names coull not coul :P
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Steve Coull
and she was never anyone best friend only in her head he was :P
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Amber Card Ginther
besiades adams not friendswith fat chicks
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Alleah Marie Poirier
lol, hambeast.
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Elizabeth Mattson
wow. that's rough. I mean the grammar that hurts my brain is bad enough, but then when she has the audacity to demand a DNA test, as if anyone cares what she thinks. that's truly amazing. what a ho.
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Alleah Marie Poirier
werd

all boarding flight 1 (way) to mars

NASA wants to go to Mars.


Ok, well duh. But there's new literature that suggests they're looking at it in new ways, that just might result in a possible Mars mission becoming a reality. Jim McClane writes that a one-way, one-person mission to Mars is the easiest, cheapest, most feasible way to get 'er done.

I for one, am all for it. I think that humanity has become too big for it's britches, so to speak, in that we truly believe that we are kings of all we survey. We need something truly awe-inspiring to humble us once again. With religion declining, and pessimism reigning supreme, I think mankind really needs to find comfort, or humility, or even insignificance in something greater than itself, if only the vastness of space. We really are in a rut, as ar as our species goes. There's nothing left to explore here on earth. We've gone as far as we can go, geographically, culturally, and idiologically. Nothing is sacred anymore. People everywhere have already charted the extremes of the human experience. What next?

Mars. Apparently, anyway. And I am totally behind the idea. I believe it's definitely possible. Without getting deeper into the science than I can handle, it seems quite uncomplicated when envisioned a la Jim McClane. Mars Landers move us in, months before the Mars colonists strap on their suits. Then one or two people hop into a rocket, bringing soup mix, and powdered milk, land on the red planet, set up shop, melt some ice, then kick back and enjoy the view until one or two more people get there twenty six months later.

I like the idea of recycling Martian ice for uses other than water! Break down molecular components until you have oxygen for breathing and hydrogen for fuel... Bring along genetically manipulated plants that produce oxygen out of carbon dioxide like an ADHD child produces irritating behavior out of sugar! I find the whole thing ridiculously exciting and adventurous. I mean, a committed effort to colonizing another planet could spark unprecedented global feelings of cooperation and purpose, and ultimately beget a new era of human history!

And it's not like you have a shortage of takers for the mission itself. Yes, it's dangerous. But nothing this ground-breaking and monumental isn't. Now who on earth, if anybody, would be willing to go into a hostile environment with limited resources, knowing full well they might not survive the duration?

This guy. The text on the page displays oddly, so I've 'translated' some of it for you here for easier reading:


"Here is an out of the box idea. Let the heroes of all our countries, for once, risk the ultimate sacrifice for something greater than one man’s idea. Maybe once let these men and women that rise every day, and say today I will stand for something, and say evil will not prevail, not on my watch. For once, let them volunteer for us all…mankind, the human race. It might just catch on, if we let it.

"Will we falter at a hint of death or danger? Or will we do now what so many in all of the world's history has done before us. NASA of all thinking societies should understand this. Would there even be an America or NASA if a man named Columbus had not pursued a dangerous and possibly deadly voyage to a new world? He certainly had to consider whether or not he would ever return home to see all those he loved so dearly. But what of those aboard his ships, those that left Spain knowing that they would never return. Those few that willingly risked all for the chance at a new world and a new future, could they have possibly known what effects they would have had on the future due to their sacrifices? Now can we have enough vision to see our destiny, can we, for a moment, see past our petty differences of race and religion to see peace, prosperity and possibly a new world."


...yeah, this dude thought he was on TV. But you know, he has a point. The world has become very risk-wary. I have another word for it. I call it "pussy."

But moving beyond the weinie-wagging, he makes some salient technological points, as well. The idea of sending more than one ship, with three or four colonists each is definitely a good one.

I don't know. With the global economy in a recession, and people in the Deep South slowly realizing that they really can't assassinate their president, it'll be a while before this ever comes to fruition. But in the meantime...what an idea to hold onto!

theatre survey. screw facebook notes.

Once you've been tagged, fill this out. At the end, tag 25 more actors including me. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR:TheatreOne's 2007/2008 season.
DID YOU GET IT:No...but then again, the season was supposed to be four shows long, and the show I was auditioning for ended up cut, so really, who cares?
LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION: Dream of Now from the Music Man (auditioning for Urinetown the Musical)
FAVORITE MUSICAL(s): not a huge fan of musicals, to tell you the truth.
FAVORITE PLAY(s): Elizabeth Rex by Timothy Findley, Shakespeare's Macbeth
FAVORITE ROLE YOU'VE PLAYED, AND FROM WHAT SHOW?: Errol Flynn's widow Beverly in The Other Shoe
FAVORITE ROLE OVERALL THAT I WOULD LOVE TO PLAY: something sarcastic. a la Jeanine Garofolo (sp?)
SUPERSTITION: the more I want something, if I think about it the less likely it is to happen. I get very morose just before an audition.
YOUR GOAL IN SHOW BUSINESS: one day, if i can, and if it's right. get back into it.
WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW?: holy cow, my answer is the exact same as Becky's! a dance recital when i was seven, a mouse in The Night Before Christmas, and then first role with lines was as the mother in fifth grade! Oh wait, I lied: I had lines as the Cat in the Halloween play that same year.
HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO?: there was a solo written for my character in a certain musical, that a certain choreographer cut for no reason. so, we won't go into that one.
HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO?: sure have: besides choir, my first role with a vocal solo was the mother in grade five. Dick Whittington and His Magic Cat. The Music Man, Urinetown the Musical.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW?: Twelfth Night, baby! I was Viola. :)
HAVE YOU BEEN TO NY? No, but I'd love to, obviously!
HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA?Drove through on the way to San Diego
WHAT'S THE SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION? Starting
WHAT'S THE BEST PART OF AN AUDITION?Finishing
NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN: Anything Greek, and any pantomime.
NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS: The Crucible
WHAT ARE YOU AUDITIONING FOR NEXT? Nothing on my plate until Anna's at least in preschool.
DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS?: My best friends definitely.
ON A SCALE OF 1-10, HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID? depends on the show. If I'm not paying you to teach me something I don't know, then you should definitely be paying me.
SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE ON-STAGE?: in Twelfth Night, I kept forgetting my props. My sword, my coin pouch, everything.
WHO IS THE MOST DIFFICULT PERSON (ON STAGE OR OFF) THAT YOU HAVE EVER WORKED WITH?: There's a few of them. A certain choreographer who is related to a certain musican who also runs a sawmill. A producer who set aside a lead role for himself before audition dates were even set. Stage managers who flip out over something that's already been ok'd by the director, and costume designer. And then there are all those people who absolutely CAN NOT ACT.
EVER BEEN NAKED ONSTAGE?:Nope
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KILLED?: Yep. I think I got stabbed, but I can't remember. Also I fell off a 'building' in Power
BEEN DRUNK?: played drunk yes, been drunk onstage, no. hungover...yes.
PLAYED SOMEONE HALF YOUR AGE?: I'm the size of a premature hobbit--what do you think?
PLAYED SOMEONE TWICE YOUR AGE?: yeah, when I was like ten... it's kind of easy to do at that age.
CRIED? yep. fake tears and real ones once during Oleanna. :)
FIRED A GUN?Nope
BEEN DRENCHED?Nope
BEEN IN A DREAM SEQUENCE? in Power
BEEN KISSED ON STAGE? Sure. Twelfth Night, and Power.

not so dumb

I did it! I manage to turn my question mark back into a question mark, ALL by myself, and figure out why the deuce Blogger wasn't letting me sign in, even though I knew I had the right password! go me!

Re-read the book The Five People You Meet in Heaven today. SOOOOOOO good! It would be nice to recieve some sort of explanation for the way our lives are the way they are, wouldn't it? I also really like the idea that Heaven is a set of steps, to be gone through one by one. Reading that book really makes me hope I haven't accidentally killed anyone without realizing it. :S It also made me realize some things about my own life so far...

For one thing, growing up on Welfare sucked. There's no doubt about it. But in a way, I actually really benefited from it. With a mother who didn't work, I had one parent who was consistently loving AND available. Even in the best of households, most kids don't get that. I think having that love and support always available to me made me not only secure and confident, but strong as well. I don't have as much of that regret that comes from not spending enough time with your parents before they go. Don't get me wrong, I still have it. But I would surmise that people who grow up in a two-income (ergo double parental absence) household and then go on to live life, continually preoccupied with their own affairs without considering how finite the lives of those around them are, have a harder time with that guilt after the inevitable event.

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Becoming a parent today requires you to make those decisions about how to balance your life around working, not working, money, quality of life, and what you, ultimately, want your life to be about. Male or female, the economy is such that a two-income household is not only the norm, but necessary for an acceptable standard of living. As a parent, how do you acknowledge that fact and still give your child every possible advantage for facing their own life? I mean, I used to think that if me or Adam is still alive when Adrianna reaches two, then I would have already provided her with more than I had...but sometimes I'm not so sure. I have to go back to work; there's no choice about that. But in doing that in order to provide my daughter with what she needs, as well as some things she wants, am I preventing her from having that ever-present love and support that I was lucky enough to have? Or, as childcare books nowadays reassuringly state, am I merely providing her with more and varied adult love and attention by putting her in day care?

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I swear, the human race is stressing itself into it's own demise. In our constant efforts to advance in every way, all we do is throw natural order further and further out of line. Carl Sagan had it right, when he said that we are in a technological adolescence. We're discovering all the possibilities, exploring our reality with all the tools available to us, realizing the extremes of what we are capable of, and doing it all so quickly, that everything feels unsynchronized and wrong. We abuse our bodies, are inherently selfish, and live our lives in the Name of Fun. How much more like an angry teenager can our species get?

Just imagine if our society reaches the point of global maturity? Stable economies, peaceful and respectful international relations, and a true sense of purpose. If only, right?

i've got it all

i have got to admit that i really love my life!

honestly, everything my world has been about for the last fifteen years (performing, my friends, high school relationships) is all well and good, but it left me with a serious lack of meaning in my life. i had a lotof fun, definitely, but i didn't have any real reason to take my life seriously. Why do something for someone else if it wasn't what i wanted to do? Why bother getting up in the morning? My life over the past four months has so much more responsibility, solidity, and meaning than at any time previous, particularly since the death of my mother.

What can I say? I love my fiancee, my baby is beautiful, healthy, and intelligient, and I have a safe, happy home. Thank God. What more could any person want?

'you are so much more creative than all the dry boring saps you work with...' 'who are you talking to, specifically'

can I just say some things about the Office? First of all, Steve Carell rocks my world, and second of all, to all those who watch the Office, Michael Scott TOTALLY should have been an elementary school teacher. Or possibly junior high, but that's a little iffy. Junior high students can be brutal mean. But I really do think he should have gone into some kind of work with kids, and then he wouldn't be such a huge dipshit.

Ok, back to the real world. :) I've been trying to figure out Photoshop, and it's a lot harder than I would have thought! I seriously need Photoshop for Dummies. Then again, it doesn't even really matter until we get the printer next month. But still. There is so much awesome stuff I want to do with my pictures for my scrapbooks! Digital scrapbooking here I come!

Ok, I just noticed an empty wine bottle beneath the computer desk...I mean, I know Adam was frustrated that WOW wouldn't load, but seriously? The whole computer thing has been a little more frustrating that either of us realized it would be...

damn blogger posting before I'm ready. Anyways, I forgot how hard it is to write about my boring life, so I'm reverting to old school FWP and doing a day-at-a-glance.

what I did today: bummed around, watched season four of The Office, played with Anna, gave up and got another payday loan, went for a drive, and brought chips and pop home.
the plan: to NOT GET ANYMORE PAYDAY LOANS!!! man, am I ever pathetic. and to figure out Photoshop. also figure out what to get Adam for Father's Day.
what I woke up in: t-shirt and drawstring shorts
what my daughter wore: pink onesie and jeans!
something awesome: the payday place gave me my loan on a prepaid mastercard that I can reload! Woo, ordering scrapbook kits online!




Ok, so I'm rereading old blog posts right now (trying to remember what the original day-at-a-glance consisted of) and I totally forgot just what life in second-year college was like...how busy I was, how goofy I was, just how many people I felt close to... If I was to do another fifteen people post, it would probably be more than half family. yikes. good times, good times.